Tuesday, 11 November 2014

Empty Spaces

Miss the warmth of your presence,
The sound of your breaths,
Miss the dent in the pillows you left. 
Miss reaching out and touching you,
With the tips of my toes. 
Miss when you are snoring,
And I have to hold your nose. 
Miss when I wake up,
And get to watch you doze. 

Miss when you'd hold me,
If I was scared,
Miss when you showed me,
How much you cared. 
Miss every kiss,
On the top of my head. 
Miss when you looked at me,
Said, "let's go to bed". 

Hate all this space,
Never felt so alone,
Can't feel you twitching,
Can't hear you groan. 
What would I give,
To roll over and find,
You there beside me,
Calling me, "mine". 

Friday, 15 August 2014

Tragedy On A Rainy Day

Stepping out from the large, ancient building that homed the library she noticed a man holding an umbrella. 
Grinning, she hurried over to him and he, lost in his own little world did not notice her until she had stepped underneath it. 
"Hello dear."
"Afternoon darling, you ready to head off?"
"I am indeed, are you going to tell me where we're headed?"
They started to walk and he smiled knowingly.
"Now that would ruin the surprise."
They stopped at a crossing and he wrapped the arm that was holding the umbrella around her waist, scattering raindrops down his right sleeve but he did not seem to mind, and he bent his head slightly to press his lips against her temple. He was tall, even when she was wearing her heels he had a good few inches on her. She tilted her chin towards him and smiled. It was almost comical how similar they were, both tall, in woollen trench coats with buttons that were golden in colour, dressed eccentrically and wearing thick, blue rimmed glasses- though hers were cat eye frames and his were not. Their lips met for a brief moment before the man on the lights switched from green to red and they stepped off the pavement in unison, his arm still wrapped around her. The rain was coming down heavily but they seemed to glow in one another's presence, alight with happiness. 
It seemed almost impossible to comprehend what was happening when another light illuminated them both, in that moment they were framed by the glare of oncoming headlights. Her laughing at something he'd said, mouth wide open in a way many would consider unattractive. Her teeth were crooked and her face was screwed up with mirth, cheeks slightly too red from a combination of her giggles and the cold. He was staring down at her, eyes soft and pleasant "I adore you" his look seemed to say. A cheesy grin split his face, so large it seemed to threaten to break the edges of it. 
Then the car hit and she was forced into him. Her body crumpled in an ugly manner as it collided with his. The umbrella, free from his grip skittered off towards the side of the road. A hand, previously stuffed into a pocket of the navy blue trench coat had worked its way free and clasped between the bloodstained fingers you could just make out a velvet box. The box had been damaged on impact, its hinges now askew. A glimmer peeked through the gap left in it, revealing a simple diamond engagement ring, winking in the light of the smashed headlamps of the car. 

Saturday, 24 May 2014

a promise

today I heard,
that by the time I've finished telling you,
"I love you"
twenty thousand cells in my body
will have died and been replaced.
And they will love you too.


Wednesday, 5 February 2014

Sunrise

Pink fingers reach across the sky,
As the sun awakes and stretches it's light. 
It's just past dawn, the trees still look black,
With the rising star against their backs.
How nice to think a new day's here,
Utterly untainted, what will appear?

Sunday, 19 January 2014

Am I Holding Too Tightly?

(This poem is for reading out loud, read quickly, and take a breath at each line break). 
I love how we are
Late at night with the lights off
No seeing, we can't be self conscious. 
It's just us and our flesh as it melds
My fingers in your hair and raking
Over your skin,
Desperately trying to hold on to each
Little moment I have with you,
So scared you'll leave that
You'll slip away I
Couldn't bear it if you did that
I haven't made the most of us
No I haven't I couldn't 
We go to bed too early or
I pick and waste the
Precious time we could be
Speaking loving happy things
On criticsising.
Snapping at your personality
Trying desperately to tear off the 
Parts that scare me but I like to be scared. 
I like to be scared by you. 
You are worth being afraid of. 

Saturday, 30 November 2013

An Apology

I'm sorry that I'm clingy,
And want to see you all the time,
I'm sorry about my black moods,
I'm nowhere near sublime.

I'm sorry for the guilt trips,
It's the only way I know
To make you stay with me,
I'm so scared that you'll go. 

I know I don't deserve you,
I'm sorry for that too.
I'm just a mess, 
Full of loose ends, 
Don't know what else to do. 

I'm sorry I have stretch marks,
And my thighs are far too wide, 
My stomach sags,
My eyes have bags,
And my hair never looks right. 

I wish I could be better,
Sweeter,
Patient,
Kind,
Instead I play the victim, 
Messing with your mind. 

But one day soon I hope,
That I will get it right,
I'll stop this hurtful cycle, 
And we'll move up to the light. 

Sunday, 10 November 2013

The Morning

A shaft of sunlight pierces
The early morning and I,
Already awake, am left
Breathless, awestruck as it
Illuminates your peaceful features. 

You stir then, your eyes open,
And they are bright, 
Filled with the promise of a new day,
And a sleepy honesty. 
A smile lights up your face,
As the daybreak did only a moment ago,
So I return it and move in
To touch your lips on mine.

And we lay there for awhile,
Half awake as the sun rises,
Exchanging sweet words,
Sweet kisses,
Sweet embraces. 
And as grateful as I am to the sun,
For rising each morning,
I am more grateful for you,
And the light you bring to me.