An Apology

I'm sorry that I'm clingy,

And want to see you all the time,

I'm sorry about my black moods,

I'm nowhere near sublime.

I'm sorry for the guilt trips,

It's the only way I know

To make you stay with me,

I'm so scared that you'll go. 

I know I don't deserve you,

I'm sorry for that too.

I'm just a mess, 

Full of loose ends, 

Don't know what else to do. 

I'm sorry I have stretch marks,

And my thighs are far too wide, 

My stomach sags,

My eyes have bags,

And my hair never looks right. 

I wish I could be better,

Sweeter,

Patient,

Kind,

Instead I play the victim, 

Messing with your mind. 

But one day soon I hope,

That I will get it right,

I'll stop this hurtful cycle, 

And we'll move up to the light.